2018

This year has been the roughest yet. 

From not being able to get out of bed, 

to contemplating suicide, 

to feeling incredibly alone and helpless in ways I never thought I’d experience, 

to not wanting to look in the mirror, 

to falling in love and watching it dissolve in front of my eyes,

to not wanting to be around anyone, 

to acknowledging the fact that I need help, 

that I have failed, 

that I am envious, 

that I have regrets that keep me up at night. 

This year I was forced to face a lot, so much, too much, too soon. 

This year has brought me to my knees, but oddly enough, I feel so equipped and ready for the future.

 2019 is the light at the end of a very long dark tunnel, with all the pain, Ive learned so much about myself and for that, Im thankful. 

Heres to self love, 

optimism, 

happiness, 

friendship, 

taking care of yourself, 

letting go and creating beautiful imperfect moments that will last a lifetime. 

Happy New Year